Live on


When life shows paleness,
show it that you are strong,

When life shows worthwhile directions,
show it that you can do it well,

when life shows temptation,
show it that you are not easy catch,

when failiures come,
show it that you will still rise back,

when love comes,
fall in deep love of silent lover,

Life is primarily to ,
manifest your strength and devotion,

This game of life is such that,
till you are in it,
temptation will hold you, for you have to give it a blow,
righteous pursuit will hold you, for you have to give it a chance,
Staying static is idleness,
memories gathered by senses will make you confuse,
don't heed them,
perception gathered by meditation born calmness will whisper you,
hear it well,

Life is indeed play,
so workout till last breath before walking in pavelion,
because the only way to go back, is to not give up out of devotion and love for silent lover,
keep going :)

How to Live life?
Life has always been an unanswerable question. Only few rare ones crack the code. Life in its very essence is changing. If today I ask you, how many of you would like to live for more than 100 years? My blog is only for those who don't wish to live more than that. Because those who wish to live more than that have cracked the code already or haven't realized the burden hidden in carrying out life the way it is going.

Life if any has to be changeable. It is like a full grown tree which came from a seed and after ripening longs to go back to seed again.But then we go back to question, why did the tree came if its essence ultimately longs to go back to seed?
Life is manifest form, it cannot be peaceful,lovoing abode. But one has to play a part and come back to peaceful abode.
In life, one is always playing his part. I explain you how life is. I create an imaginary seperation, ie dream.. Tie it to some instrument like mind which percieves and expresses in form of senses.
So is life about expressing and expressing?
Obviously No!
No ways, You can go on expressing unendingly, but is how one should play his part? I thought I should become a mathematicians and keep expressing, but such journey will only be a mirage. You will never find satisfaction, because today you write 2 books, tomorrow you write more 2 books, and all goes on, there is no end! This is really nightmare when you cannot end with satisfaction.
Then I thought personality is higher, but personality also ends with person or lives a bit longer, doesn't lead's to end. It shrinks all energy in one focus, but then the wideness is left. But in all thought processes one thing was common, all were never ending and all ended up in tradeoff and unsatisfied heart. This is also true with emotional love, it also ends up in unsatisfied heart because again based on tradeoff.

All seemed like hiesenburg's principle : Trade off and trade off

I was utterly confused? What life should be?
Than a more profound question came, What does life has to be?
Life has to be a journey which gives opportunity of expressing god, and strength, by simply being unaffected by senses which is very difficult. Living a simple life is a Easop Fable. If he lives so, he is pretending and mentally going through a lot of turmoil. Life must be an expression of desireless love which is all-encompassing. It must always be a limited instrument which by its limited expression expresses unlimited (unconditional singular existance)within which cannot express itself without limited.

People have mis-interpretted word 'within' or 'internal journey' in spirituality pretty often. God or unconditional existance is within. This doesn't mean that god is exactly located within our mind. Journey of within is not search of unconditional in conditional physical dimention rather it is exploration of another dimension altogether. Because there cannot be 100 billion god or unconditional existence which are separate.

So ultimately life is limited expression of unlimited existance. Higher of expression is unconditional love but still if it is on earth, intermingled with dream, it has to be conditional expression. Because if the such expression is unconditional, it cannot be conditioned in a particular form.Such expression after getting conscious expression takes back to source. I personally consider that life is meaningless if you are not able to rest it and go back to where all started with. You must be able to finally consciously drop the limited and go back to unlimited and should do it after yo play your part in life. But before ending it is sweet and nice if you make your life filled with love, express it to few, give some message, and then come back.Choice is always with you whether you want to be a Zombie in this world or have unconditional existence.

Fearless

Fearless

Every day begins,
like blooming of flower,
like shining of sun,
like freshness,

But why does gloominess come?
how does fear enter thou heart,
how do we start feeling small?
why thou flower starts wilting?

why thou dreams worry about what happens next?why thou dream worry about who art liking,who art not liking,
why thou dreams worry about success or failure,
why thou dreams worry about right and wrong, life and death?
because thou forget that  after all, it is dream,
because after all we forget that dream is expression of reality,
because thous dream is dependent on circumstances,dependencies,

seclusion and inner surrender is one word to devote your life to dream like worship,
 when thou  dream without trapping someone to appreciate your dream,
when thou dream knowing it as a dream,
when thou become a song of your soul,
when thou care least about anyone or anything,
when thou dream with joy, not interfering in life of people,
not interfering with things, as if dream is dependent on them,
just hallowed with joy of being able to dream,
when thou'st dream surpass realms of weakness of attraction and repulsion
when thou'st dream surpass realms of being proving and being proved,
when thou'st dream gets purified by right intentions,non-interference,self discipline,
and knowledge that thou'st dream is thou'st dream alone and after all it is dream,
when thou dreams enter in secure palace of calmness and control,
when thou dreams leave tornado of desires, success,
when thou become able to leave dream any moment,
when when thou know the secret of world, and its ever changing nature
and also know unchanging in everchanging,
thou will become fearless hero :)

Keep going

In life there are,
right dreams worth chasing,
nightmares worth leaving,

chase the dreams
leave the nightmares,
but at heart,
do things like a hero,

a real hero,
is fearless and yet humble,
hardworking yet ego-less,
who is not too affected by success and failure,
he just know to keep trying,
who is chasing his dreams yet selfless,
who works under pressure sometimes and is still holding calm,

such are people rare,
I find such hero in Sachin and all great souls,
we are spirits,
keep trying best with complete devotion,
for it is not the success but the attitude towards life,
which defines you,
this dream of life will be gone and is temporary,
all you gain will be lost someday,
all this brain, all muscle will be gone,
all qualities will also be lost,
except your spirit :)
but till you are here,
don't let this spirit rust with laziness,
try hard to chose best of options you have intuitively,
as its rightly said,
we all know at head and heart,
what is right for us intuitively,
in whatever state we are though,
work with reasoning, with heart filled with compassion&love,
and living as if you never regret,
when death strikes you :)
but till you are in life :)
its not important what others think of you,
rather what you think of yourself,
a true hero has both big heart and big spirit!, (mind is quite relative, it decays with age but spirit doesn't)
live like a hero :)

My Love

Dead,empty,hollow,
was I,
when I imagined world,
without love,without life,
just as a mechanical process,
my hairs raised,my eyes stilled,
a breeze of air, passing by my ears,
utter silence, heartless was i then,
everything seemed faked up,
cooked up seemed the whole world,
as if I am entrapped lonely,
hours and hours passed,
but no answer?
why am I still living?
why is this machine still paining?
switch it off!
if all things are predestined,predictable,going to die?
why am I here? why this pain of life?

suddenly amidst this intense loneliness,
when baffled was I,
sprang fountain of love,
as if trying to hold me in,

as I asked it,
who are you?
answer came,I am love!
I : then why don't you stay forever?
Love continues,
I am always with you,
it's you who don't seek me,
you seek something else,
I bring this death,
to make you realize,
that i am not just in
a mother or wife,
not just in friend or pride,
i am everywhere,
yet nothing can express me fully,
I don't ascribe any quality,any form,
yet I am everywhere,
when will you grow up dear?
you loved me alone when your heart flowed for anything,
but you thought that -that anything is love
and then when that thing broke your heart!
you thought love was fake,
Just give me truly once your heart, your mind,your whole being,
for I am love,
dreams will fade away, someday you will fade away, melt in me alone,
but I will stay forever, in joy inexpressible 

The Trap

There are some observations that I have closely observed in us. Something about the way in which our mind, senses work. Try to look what I am saying intuitively and analyze it. Our brain consists of various parts :

amygdala, cigular cortex, cognitive part and also parts of brain which  are responsible for senses data input and processing. 

Let me now explain the way in which data is processed.

Let me now talk to the point what I wished to say. Every event is stored not just as a plain text, like the way computer stores but it also stores emotions associated with it. But now, where the hell do emotions come from? For children emotions mainly comes from hormonal levels and genetic factors. But for adults it is very very different. Why? Because of the emotional data and cognitive data and strong self identity by person.

 Self Identity :

It comes by associating or dissociating mentally with some act or thought. This self-identity is what can be called as ego in some forms. Environment is one of the biggest hitting factor when it comes to self-identity. Environment includes family, society, global and local factors. These factors create emotional bias and responsible for right and wrong. What is cognitive bias then? It is bias created in a way we process and relate things. For example we learn A,B,C,D, . . in KinderGarden and then we start associating its combinations with particular set of memory. There is also like hormone bias. Particular high and low level of hormones effect associativity with objects,emotions and associating with pleasure and pain.

Now cigular cortex is centre for pseudo-self-identity. It is like it associates self identity with particular qualities, particular thoughts,particular stories or processes, etc. The more is the fear of things getting changed, the more strongly it associates.

 Let me give you an example

In some indian families, taking meat is considered wrong because we are killing someone. This is a classic example of what I mean to convey to you. Now person is associating himself with society and people around him and feels too dependent on them. This is one paradigm that is established. Now fear arises when thought of breaking system arises. Because mind can think everything. Now we start breaking system, histamine is released. Making us feel high. It is released when we break the equilibrium in mind or in some ways change the self-identity in mind. So earlier we used to associate ourselves with pure veg but now we associate ourselves as non-veg. So now everything starts appear differently. We then create our own stories in mind to hide ourselves which results in more association. Slowly Stories become part of our identity and then we start identifying ourselves with it. We may say we are independent but we are deeply entrapped by this chaos. This doesn't mean you have to experience it but you can observe it using your own intuition. This is a bit big example, but in life there are many ways in which we keep confusing our identity. We confuse identity with quality, story, people, x,y,z all things.

You cannot be perfectly ego less if you are not out of system, till you don't realize this fact that true self is independent of all qualities and is still unconditionally dwelling. Our pseudo-Identity may tell, you will loose your identity without associations with these qualities as a response to our though and we may think of ego less life as impossible, but it surely is. It is only by meditation on unconditional presence that we start perceiving things as they are supposed to be perceived, like a dream. By such perception our intuition starts appear more and more strongly. Though somehow intuition is always there :)

This means we must do right things, but without that fear of loosing identity by wrong. This is called unattached right, and this is what I wish to convey.

 Example, Mind is more associative to self than body. But it is only when we observe carefully, we find that nothing is associated with self and it is just a play of things going on. Therefore saints say,Highest of associations with self is unconditional association by meditation.Therefore comes spirituality, In meditation we try best to associate nothing with our identity, just unconditionallity is associated, which finally leads to real freedom. Real freedom is beyond freedom of senses,mind, it is this non-association of identity to anything and getting established in such paradigm. We may observe this but to feel it is totally different. You may say that you are fearless but moment lion comes, all fears start. So that is difference between theory and experience. Therefore some saints say : if you experience unconditionallity, you will not have to experience anything else. Because you are much above lower associations, doing what is right and still unattached to it, being out of system, still being is system doing right thing without association.