Keep going

In life there are,
right dreams worth chasing,
nightmares worth leaving,

chase the dreams
leave the nightmares,
but at heart,
do things like a hero,

a real hero,
is fearless and yet humble,
hardworking yet ego-less,
who is not too affected by success and failure,
he just know to keep trying,
who is chasing his dreams yet selfless,
who works under pressure sometimes and is still holding calm,

such are people rare,
I find such hero in Sachin and all great souls,
we are spirits,
keep trying best with complete devotion,
for it is not the success but the attitude towards life,
which defines you,
this dream of life will be gone and is temporary,
all you gain will be lost someday,
all this brain, all muscle will be gone,
all qualities will also be lost,
except your spirit :)
but till you are here,
don't let this spirit rust with laziness,
try hard to chose best of options you have intuitively,
as its rightly said,
we all know at head and heart,
what is right for us intuitively,
in whatever state we are though,
work with reasoning, with heart filled with compassion&love,
and living as if you never regret,
when death strikes you :)
but till you are in life :)
its not important what others think of you,
rather what you think of yourself,
a true hero has both big heart and big spirit!, (mind is quite relative, it decays with age but spirit doesn't)
live like a hero :)

My Love

Dead,empty,hollow,
was I,
when I imagined world,
without love,without life,
just as a mechanical process,
my hairs raised,my eyes stilled,
a breeze of air, passing by my ears,
utter silence, heartless was i then,
everything seemed faked up,
cooked up seemed the whole world,
as if I am entrapped lonely,
hours and hours passed,
but no answer?
why am I still living?
why is this machine still paining?
switch it off!
if all things are predestined,predictable,going to die?
why am I here? why this pain of life?

suddenly amidst this intense loneliness,
when baffled was I,
sprang fountain of love,
as if trying to hold me in,

as I asked it,
who are you?
answer came,I am love!
I : then why don't you stay forever?
Love continues,
I am always with you,
it's you who don't seek me,
you seek something else,
I bring this death,
to make you realize,
that i am not just in
a mother or wife,
not just in friend or pride,
i am everywhere,
yet nothing can express me fully,
I don't ascribe any quality,any form,
yet I am everywhere,
when will you grow up dear?
you loved me alone when your heart flowed for anything,
but you thought that -that anything is love
and then when that thing broke your heart!
you thought love was fake,
Just give me truly once your heart, your mind,your whole being,
for I am love,
dreams will fade away, someday you will fade away, melt in me alone,
but I will stay forever, in joy inexpressible 

The Trap

There are some observations that I have closely observed in us. Something about the way in which our mind, senses work. Try to look what I am saying intuitively and analyze it. Our brain consists of various parts :

amygdala, cigular cortex, cognitive part and also parts of brain which  are responsible for senses data input and processing. 

Let me now explain the way in which data is processed.

Let me now talk to the point what I wished to say. Every event is stored not just as a plain text, like the way computer stores but it also stores emotions associated with it. But now, where the hell do emotions come from? For children emotions mainly comes from hormonal levels and genetic factors. But for adults it is very very different. Why? Because of the emotional data and cognitive data and strong self identity by person.

 Self Identity :

It comes by associating or dissociating mentally with some act or thought. This self-identity is what can be called as ego in some forms. Environment is one of the biggest hitting factor when it comes to self-identity. Environment includes family, society, global and local factors. These factors create emotional bias and responsible for right and wrong. What is cognitive bias then? It is bias created in a way we process and relate things. For example we learn A,B,C,D, . . in KinderGarden and then we start associating its combinations with particular set of memory. There is also like hormone bias. Particular high and low level of hormones effect associativity with objects,emotions and associating with pleasure and pain.

Now cigular cortex is centre for pseudo-self-identity. It is like it associates self identity with particular qualities, particular thoughts,particular stories or processes, etc. The more is the fear of things getting changed, the more strongly it associates.

 Let me give you an example

In some indian families, taking meat is considered wrong because we are killing someone. This is a classic example of what I mean to convey to you. Now person is associating himself with society and people around him and feels too dependent on them. This is one paradigm that is established. Now fear arises when thought of breaking system arises. Because mind can think everything. Now we start breaking system, histamine is released. Making us feel high. It is released when we break the equilibrium in mind or in some ways change the self-identity in mind. So earlier we used to associate ourselves with pure veg but now we associate ourselves as non-veg. So now everything starts appear differently. We then create our own stories in mind to hide ourselves which results in more association. Slowly Stories become part of our identity and then we start identifying ourselves with it. We may say we are independent but we are deeply entrapped by this chaos. This doesn't mean you have to experience it but you can observe it using your own intuition. This is a bit big example, but in life there are many ways in which we keep confusing our identity. We confuse identity with quality, story, people, x,y,z all things.

You cannot be perfectly ego less if you are not out of system, till you don't realize this fact that true self is independent of all qualities and is still unconditionally dwelling. Our pseudo-Identity may tell, you will loose your identity without associations with these qualities as a response to our though and we may think of ego less life as impossible, but it surely is. It is only by meditation on unconditional presence that we start perceiving things as they are supposed to be perceived, like a dream. By such perception our intuition starts appear more and more strongly. Though somehow intuition is always there :)

This means we must do right things, but without that fear of loosing identity by wrong. This is called unattached right, and this is what I wish to convey.

 Example, Mind is more associative to self than body. But it is only when we observe carefully, we find that nothing is associated with self and it is just a play of things going on. Therefore saints say,Highest of associations with self is unconditional association by meditation.Therefore comes spirituality, In meditation we try best to associate nothing with our identity, just unconditionallity is associated, which finally leads to real freedom. Real freedom is beyond freedom of senses,mind, it is this non-association of identity to anything and getting established in such paradigm. We may observe this but to feel it is totally different. You may say that you are fearless but moment lion comes, all fears start. So that is difference between theory and experience. Therefore some saints say : if you experience unconditionallity, you will not have to experience anything else. Because you are much above lower associations, doing what is right and still unattached to it, being out of system, still being is system doing right thing without association.