Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Making decisions

Decision is one thing everyone has to make. You either make a right choice or a wrong choice. But It seems for some philosopher's that there is nothing like right choice and wrong choice but practically we see that there is. Good and bad is still a very relative term but right and wrong is most understandable. We have all suffered in life but we never look at what choices made it grow?
I give you my personal example to tell you what went wrong in my decision making and what I learned from it. I was really good at teaching and expressing my love and care to others. But I used to get upset when I couldn't communicate well being a bit introvert. People used to think I am just a geek, so I in order to prove them and myself that I am a more complete being went in for job. I actually forgot that I was trying to prove myself more incomplete because I was trying to prove that my existence is defined by ability to communicate.

This even happens with some researchers. They go crazy in order to prove themselves.HR of companies know this well and therefore they create this net to get work done. They give rewards, and punish to cultivate this individualism. They sometime insult people to shake away their self respect, and then people start proving themselves in a hope that they gain self respect. But this never happens. People speak with utter confidence, they have got this award, that award, in order to prove themselves, not excluding myself, I also used to be so with studies, proving.

Some people think life is all about being brave and that decisions have always to be brave. Is such assumption valid? Think practically as well as theoretically? If such statement be generalized, we would end up in making all wrong choices. Because doing wrong requires lot of courage, but is such act worth it? Courage is definitely not a parameter to judge.


So, the question is, we are all making mistake somehow, but where are we actually making mistake?
Problem is false identification. When I become an artist, I start perceiving myself as just collections of thoughts! When I become a professor, I just start perceiving myself as book of knowledge and creativity. But is it really true? How can we ignore the fact that everything is changing except what can never change?
Nowadays people take a lot of pride in intellectual prowess, but where does it go when clock of age starts ticking?
I have seen a peculiar tendency common in artist,professors or successful people, they tend to start thinking as if they are exploring the infinite. They often neglect limitation of their prowess, artist starts thinking that art is everything, but it is very limited by ability to perceive and way idea's are formulated in mind. Every thing of art is going in mind. Mind cannot be infinite expression because of very limitlessness of it by perception of brain. I don't say, don't do painting, but don't be so attached. Choosing right is very important.

Question now comes, how should I make choices. Before understanding how to make choices, we must understand the factors influencing nature of choice. Things are quite simple yet we make them quite complicated. Even before that First of all, change perception about mind, body. Think of it like an instrument. Some minds are given a some quality high, some quality low. Some bodies are fit ,some less fit. Most fights go on endlessly in order to prove prowess. Everyone's mind and body gathers some qualities by permutation and combination of environment or innate tendencies which are stored in genes by some factors. But still it is just mind or body. It is not you. When death approaches, will this brain which you so much care, this body which you care. Where will it go? So one thing is clear. Identification with these things is not the way of living which ends up life in frustration of abilities and inabilities.

Every choice in this world is seemingly neutral without any influential factor on it. But then there are certain influences which tend to create factors. Some factors are universal, some local.Strongest of all is self preservation. Universal factors cannot be different for anyone but local factors can be different. As we live in a particular type of world, there persists something as right and something as wrong which has roots in origin. First comes body consciousness, in this world as we live, we exert some space. We live as a limited body. So primary level of right choices come regarding choices of right living in context to body. But body is still ruled over by senses.

Before that I would like you to listen to story of a person for whom he wished to prove himself that spitting on other person was right in some context. This is a peculiar tendency with people of intellect, they tend to feel that there must be no law and order in world and everything will go fine.(forbidden fruit) They find mind liberated in thinking so. But they forget in this, that they are not mind.  Now this person searched the whole world to find a place where spitting on other person was right, and finally, after year and years of search, he found one tribe for which spitting on other person was right. But still for him, when he tried spitting on other person, he felt inner guilt of dis-respecting person.
So, we see, we are born and brought up in a particular environment of world for which they are somethings are definitely right for all this connected world, and something wrong. No matter how many times there be debate between moralist and liberalist, there are somethings with seeds of it in possessing something. Somethings have roots in desiring desires and greed. Such thing ought to be wrong. Seeds of such need not be personal, they may be universal by accumulation of social interaction. Similarly is opposite, seeds of righteousness need not be personal, they may be universal by accumulation through social interaction.

Right choice may not be always peaceful, especially if you have made many wrong choices but it is always right and will ultimately make peaceful.
There is also a way of making right choice. If you make choice dwelling in mind, you will not make completely right choice. You will be a sort of hypocrite then. You can also be biased sometimes. For example, if you are a researcher, when it comes to saving your research or saving a human life, you will feel confused. Because you may feel mind and thoughts are everything. Similarly if you are dwelling on body, you may feel giving importance to body in taking decision which may not be always right.

Toughest and subtlest of all are decisions of ego as I mentioned earlier and right decision. I give you an example. Suppose I am a chain smoker, now when I decide to quit it, I will feel my body reacting on me, still If I know I am right, I must care little about body. I must do all to keep body in balance but not again voice of conscience of right. What I mean to say is that make not this little self, little mind, bias your decision. Mind and body know very well how to make stories and trap the true self, as if they have mastered. We must be brave when it comes to being with god, when not dwelling in mind, body but when using mind and body, we must be conscious and discriminative.
Poeple have long said, suffering is a way of life as if to say making wrong choices are way, but this is not so, suffering even once is enough of its experience and in this world I guess everyone has suffered in smaller or larger scale and so have started having some abilities of discrimination.
Always remember one thing still, don't use discrimination to inhibit understanding infact it is outcome of understanding things. Still it is better to take right choices dwelling in body then to take wrong choice. It is still better to take right choice dwelling in mind then taking a right choice dwelling in body. It is best to take right choice dwelling unconditionally then to take right choice in mind. You may feel that you don't know right choice, you may be deeply sunk in ignorance,pain,xyz any word to describe that state, but still if you meditate internally and ask yourself, you always know what is right choice. It is called intuition, but don't confuse it with voice of ego to prove yourself. 

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